The Cosmic Reaper: How To Master Your Potential

This year has been a monumental rite of passage. The entire coarse of my life has shifted towards my personal desires for the future, in full, beyond any means that I could expect. Aspects of my life that instilled suffering have dissolved, without effort, and have been replaced with situational blessings. All of these factors have been bestowed upon me due to a simple yet misunderstood internal technique, so easily stifled, but once harnessed can open any door. The universe works for every person on this planet, and when aligned to its path all things will continue to fall into place in ways that benefit its traveler. Since I have made the decision to move to Los Angeles, against all fear of failure or trial, I had switched the frequency to provide for me financially, opportunely, and creatively. Tuning in to my own universal path through the forces of personal energy have guided me to the circumstances present, of which has hallowed me in unimaginable ways unforeseen, and allowed me to pursue the things that bring me happiness.

Resistance is futile to the universal flow, and it serves as the first major signal to what you need to purge. Prior to my decision to descend into the unknown and relocate to my current residence in Silverlake, I was drenched in a pool of unhappiness. Young yet restless, I was working endlessly to initiate progress in my life. Employed full time as a waitress on top of pursuing my education at a community college, renting a room with a toxic boyfriend in a rotting house, friendless and unmotivated to do anything that I had once found solace in before. There was so much antagonism to my situation, and I tried to fraternize with the idea of making the most out of it yet couldn’t manage to succeed. Each morning I was greeted with an overwhelming sense of dread and despair, slowly creeping in my consciousness like a terminal illness, one that was disguised in the existence of the ordinary. I was emotionally engulfed in someone who was absolutely wrong for me, my job was suffocating me with each shift and I had been drained of all inspiration to write music. These factors built into a heap of despondency within my being that was holding my spirit back from growth, a contradiction to my mantra in this epic journey of vitality. I felt as if I was on autopilot, there was no sense of pleasure anymore and I was just on a raft with dwindling resources at the mercy of the elements. This was no way to live and certainly the components of a necessary change.

There was no doubt that I could not continue on this way, yet I was consumed with the fear of leaving the comforts of stability. I was engaged in a battle of knowing what I need to do and trusting myself to prevail over its obstacles. I could never have fathomed that it would all work out, granting me the resources I need to adhere to my true calling and achieve personal success. I had already made the decision to attend CSULA in the Fall, regardless of whether or not I kept all other factors the same or used it as a tool to cleanse myself of them. I knew I was facing a fork in the path, and the universe had begun to intervene through subtle alliances of noticeable “signs” that I could easily ignore but instead took as guidance that ultimately led me on a series of tumultuous transformations to where I am today: blossoming glory.

I was met with constant acknowledgement once I shifted my autopilot towards the positive forces. Self-dissonance is a problem consistent in our culture, because our Western philosophy distances our relationship with the spirit and focuses on what’s tangible. We remove ourselves from our higher consciousness in order to remain present in the rat race, to our demise, which hinders us from living out our true potential. My fate line was dragging me behind through broken glass, and I was inherently wounded along my path to healing. Everything that was not meant for me met me with resistance, regardless of action or separation; I had a respective friction to those burdens. We all have this incredible beautiful energy within us that will take us exactly where we need to be IF we listen to what it tells us in the form of resistance and acknowledgement. If we are met with an internal resistance to grow from the people we surround ourselves with, than that serves as a testament to the need to remove those people from your path. If we are met with an internal resistance to our jobs or our relationships, even in the slightest, than we know there is another option out there that we must seek in order to synchronize with the universal flow. These resistances are subliminal messages from the universe that lie in our subconscious that will always eventually surface, with sometimes catastrophic force to rid themselves from your path. Therefore it is imperative to become aware to these signals to support our well-being and avoid further suffering.

Acknowledgement came full force in indescribable form; my fears were met with assurance and security. My father, an illusive figure in my childhood and adolescence, stepped into his position and offered financial stability. My relationship dissolved into the inevitable chaos that it was destined to, which left me shattered yet forcibly detached to its remnants. New people began to flood me with positivity and attraction to my energy, bringing with them personal support and friendship better than I would have ever received if I stayed. My musical abilities were catching attention to those around me and manifested in an outlet to write and record with various artists, something I was starving for in my soul that was met when I complied to the universe’s calling. These responses resonated peace inside myself, ensuring me that they were all favorable prospects from the universe as an offering I should accept. Although there was initial resistance to letting go of comfort and unhealthy attachments, I had enough momentum on my personal track to comprehend that the pain of severance served a purpose to my final destination. Comfort should not be mistaken for acknowledgement, for it is a deviously false sense of security or direction. Sometimes, we have a louder resistance to things we need the most, such as living alone was for myself, and these must be assessed with great internal deliberation to whether or not it is a calling or a warning. Adhering to my universal acknowledgments replaced my hunger with satisfaction and has motivated me to persevere. Now I have the tools I need to attain personal success and happiness.

The energy I have inside myself has been stirring in a beautiful serendipitous manner. Since my circumstances have unfolded to bless me, I took an introspective look at my own power of energy. My universal path has secured me on its voyage with full benefits, which have allowed me to call attention to what I resonate according to my own energy. By removing all negative unfulfilling aspects that served as anchors to my movement I allowed my energy to manifest to it’s ultimate form. Guidance to your best suited reality can be found through recognition of subtle intuitive resistances and acknowledgements. To anyone struggling with unhappiness, this should be a doctrine to success. Everyone has their own unique path and to this they must be true, yet each path serves an un-doubtable tie to its traveler’s happiness. Once one conquers his/her own energy and aligns with his/her universal path, all else will prosper in bountiful heaps. Your success is in your own hands, so learn to use them to benefit you.

Apocalyptic Dreams

Time has shown me over the years that serendipity is my shadow; it has stalked me like a jealous lover with scrupulous intentions. I have accepted my magnetism to circumstances due to its consistent appearance. Instead of remaining comfortably ignorant I cultured myself to recognize it’s variable disguises. Fortunately, this tends to be a positive attribute on an extreme note. The polarity of danger is safety; both can transition interchangeably with a simple intervention. I am the intervener.

College has always been a social experience for me, of which has been a platform to make friends and have copious amounts of foolish fun. On this particular night I got together with a few friends from school that I had gotten very close with. We piled into my car and headed to a house party; because I was driving I had no expectations of getting as inebriated as I did. Flashing forward, over the few hours my discrepancy was hindered by a handful of mixed drinks followed by the 3-foot bong toke that led to my functional demise. Suddenly my world accelerated in a spinning motion and I had to grip my seat in order to remain from falling down. My vision has doubled in a crossed fashion: I could not drive if we wanted to live. Feeling like an ass, I asked my friend Raquel to drive us to her house where the rest of my car unloaded and I remained to contemplate my next move: I could sleep in my car or I could wait for a moment and drive home. Raquel extended her couch to me, but something compelled me to take the risk and make the attempt to excurse to my own bed. I took a twenty-minute mental deliberation with the keys in my hand; the metaphorical devil perched on my shoulder was arm in arm with its moral counterpart. My decision was made.

When I pulled into my driveway, a surge of relief took the form of a large toothy smile. A delightfully hickory sweet scent filled the air upon my arrival, making me dance as I stumbled into my house and made my way to my room. I was filled with a drunken joy as I slipped into the safety of my bed and began to settle into sleep. My eyes were closed for three peaceful minutes until they were interrupted by a peculiar whirling sound. The whooshing sent off cognoscente alarm bells but I could have never imagined the scene I was about to encounter.

When my lids lifted, complete horror consumed me. In the reflection of my mirrored closet was a vision of confused apocalyptic chaos: the sky was on fire. I urgently jumped out of bed and bolted to my grandparent’s room screaming “FIRE,” just like in the simulated drills. I had no clue the extent of the fire, only that it was knocking at my window. I was stuttering in shock pointing like a fool at the burning scene. My grandfather busted in my room searching for the damage that he assumed I created, and to his disappointed dread he found our dear neighbors house drenched in furious flames.

There wasn’t a millisecond let to waste in the next moments. The emergency hotline was already in dial and my dogs were under each arm. Some woman was asking me, “What’s your address?” I don’t know, we just moved in and I am drunk. I gave her the wrong numbers but the correct street, so that was good enough reason to hang up and address the present danger. Fear was clinging to my back with an anxious grip and I saw people line the street warming their sights on the terror. The large branched tree in the front yard had caught like a candle. I was stunned; not a half hour ago the street was asleep and now it’s filled with screaming strangers. The house to the left of ours was completely engulfed in an angry inferno so bright it could suffice as a honing lighthouse for incoming ships along the coast. Three large shattering explosions followed which I later found out were the car’s windows busting out due to the fumes as well as two kegs in the garage deconstructing. My brain was in overdrive, the crisis at hand was my shot of sobriety and reality set in. If I had not made every decision prior in the night, with the precise timing down to the last minute, things would have played out much differently. I had made the right amount of stupid yet providential judgments: I was never so happy to have consciously drove drunk. At least my first impression of a plane crash that wiped out the neighborhood wasn’t reality, my irrational understanding of what was happening was just a split radical phobia. Reality is that I was the first responder to the nightmare initiating danger to transform to safety. This is just one of many times serendipity has channelled itself into my path. I welcome it without trepidation because I know its intentions are good. Fortuity graciously served its duty in preserving life that day, and I was its tool.

*I do not encourage drinking and driving in any way, but it had a major hand in the circumstances that played out in my post. Please note that this was a freak incidence where it served well and if drinking TAKE A CAB!

XX Brianna Loren